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October 28th, 2005
06:36 pm - Move it...
I HAVE MOVED... in lj at least.
if you wanna move with me then you can find me at _plastic_venus_
Hope you can all make it ^_^
HOMOGLOBIN IS NO MORE
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August 17th, 2005
07:37 am - I really, really wish I could be somewhere else
God, I've been so fucking emo the last few days it's driving me insane! I've myself listening to (and liking much to my horror) James Blunt and Razorlight. It's gotten so bad I almost listened to The Used the other day, but managed to save myself in time and turn it off.
And I really don't know what's wrong. Well, that's not true. It's everything. But only in an overthetopemogothsomuchpressureswoon kind of way. Eurgh, I hate when I feel this way which really never helps.
Um, anyway, to the point and beyond. I think I'll retire this livejournal. I've abandoned it for far too long and only use it to whine when I do get on it.
Will let you know later on whats really happening, though if I do get a new livejournal I'll be sure to add you.
Eurgh I really need someone to talk to. Someone who isn't lj. But I just know that if I find that person I'll forget what my problems are and just keep them bottled up again.
Well, so long.
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June 20th, 2005
03:06 pm - OH....MY....GOD!
This album is so funking amazing and I've only listened to the first 3 songs!
Makes me remember why I love Brian Molko so goddamned much!
Buy it...it's the new Timo Maas album btw
It's the first day of the rest of your life...don't fuck it up!
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/niaha/kitty/ankhappyp.gif) so funking amazed
Current Music: Timo Maas covered goodness =D
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12:40 pm - Random Internet Cafe Update
Hey long lost peeps out there, how have we all been?
Right so two things really, Brian Molko collaborating with Timo Mass is a good thing. Such a pretty voice. However ABBA mixes are definetly a bad thing (and no, that wasn't one of the two things, its just that's what just came on my mp3 player and it's scary-ing med as I type). Anyhoo, not having a job/computer sucks just as much as not having a computer/job. (see what I did there?)
Right, actually there was more than two things, but you know, if I said there was an amount of things then you probably would have pee'd off already, so naaawww!
Um, City of Heroes is a fantastic game and not at all geeky because...because I like it and I am the coolest person ever to have lived. My mum told me so.
Not much else really, I keep spending money and have yet to earn any. I really do hate not having a job. I almost even miss working at Upper Crust...wait wait, that's crazy talk. But I miss having to do stuff. And money, I miss that too.
Ooh, moving on Thursday, so I'll finally get to see this new flat (second bloody year in a row :P *shakes fist*) and you all must come to the flat warming, whenever we decide it's going to be (probably around about the 6th/7th July).
That's it really, now I am away to continue finding a job.
Life lesson learned by Robin on Wednesday night/Thursday morning:feck putting them on a pedastool, men suck...and badly at that.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/niaha/kitty/anktiredp.gif) lethargic
Current Music: Curve - Chinese Burn
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June 10th, 2005
04:04 pm - I see you found my underground
"You don't want a normal relationship. You want an idle. Someone you can put on a pedestal and worship"
One of the few things I can remember from last night, and unfortunatly it's true. She knows me too well.
It's the first day of the rest of yoiur life
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/niaha/kitty/ankthinkp.gif) contemplative
Current Music: Timo Maas (feat Brian Molko) - First Day
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June 7th, 2005
08:26 pm - Window into my mind...
Had a really horrible dream last night, not beacuse it was particularly graphic, just in how it made me feel when i wake up. Sparing details of people involved as to protect myself it went roughly as follows: I (and pretty much everyone I know) was on a train, which was going really fast. and then i heard that one of my friends was leaving (i presume he was leaving the train) and this really upset me, and i mean really upset me. I was sitting there crying, bawling my eyes out screaming that this person wasn't allowed to leave and that they had to stay. even though they said that they would be back as often as possible i just coulnd't accept it. then as i was walking around this speeding train bawling my eyes out as someone tried to console me, i went to the edge of the train and sat down with my feet dangling over the edge, and even though the train was moving so fast the ground was moving really. thats when i woke up feeling unbelievably awful and confused.
anyone who wants to take a stab at deciphering it can be my guest, i wanna know what it means if anything.
and this is not long after i had the dream where i was god and kept drowing people.... :S
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08:12 pm - Du hast mich gefragt
Rammstein are amazingly amazing, amd i have overlooked them for too long!
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June 3rd, 2005
02:53 pm - Important (Kinda)
Well, that's that then, my computer has completely given up the ghost and even though I didn't really update all that much and it was never really interesting because I got an evil blue screen telling me my memory was being dumped (sound familiar Paul?) I can no longer access my computer and therefore the internet. so anything you have to say urgently to me should be said by phone.
I am really just pissed off because now i can't get to the norwegian E.S.C. entry I downloaded just before this whole unfortunate event.
ttfn x
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May 23rd, 2005
04:57 pm - Just so you know
Norway's eurovision entry has to be the greatest thing I've seen in a good long time.
That is all
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/niaha/kitty/ankhyperp.gif) bouncy
Current Music: Norway's eurovision entry...come on, come on, come on!
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May 20th, 2005
02:10 pm - News in briefs
I am now unemployed and very scared as I have no idea how I am going to get more money, a job seems the best idea but that will be harder done than said, I just know it. The whole fear of my financial future isn't helped by the fact I handed over £300 to new flat people this morning...slighlty worrying again.
Anyhoo, so what's been happening while I've been away from all you lovely lj people? If you wanna post nice and concise replies stating any earth shattering (or even moderately interesting) news I would be most thankfull.
As for me. I was working a lot, now I'm not so much. Only second day off after my last day and already I'm weeing myself about it all. Not literally though. 'cos that would be just a bit disgusting.
I have a saxophone, I have played it twice so far. Not too good. Though will practice when I head home this weekend as, well, I spent £500 on it so I better start bloody playing it, that's what I say.
The Hitchhiker's movie sucks anus btw.
Was at Disko the other night, which was really funky, despite my complete lack of dancing energy, though I do quite like going and just listening to the music. Really loud rock is good, though my ears are still ringing. Sorry to anyone there who thought I was depressed or anything. Was just being a drama queen and too unmoved to tell people this. Thanks for all the pats on the head though :)
if anyone out there feel's like getting me anything, just for the hell of it, please pick something from the following list, thankyou:
1) a job (the usual restrictions apply)
2) my dream man
3) money...lots and lots of money
4) ugs-dray ;)
5) time to catch up with everyone in a non-getting pissed or work capacity
6) stability
That is all for now, 'till the next time...
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/niaha/kitty/ankwinkp.gif) weird
Current Music: Special D - Come With Me (i know *ashamed*)
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May 14th, 2005
08:59 am
drama at work = me unemployed by wednesday....please donate generously ;)
ps will update soon
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May 6th, 2005
09:12 am - Well, that's that then
So I voted and they lost, which means i can rightfully complain for the next four years which is nice.
Also, how proud am I of the old Higlands and Islands, almost all voting so either Lib Dems or SNP, nice to know some places have common sense left (not that i like the SNP, but y'know, they aren't Labour or the Tories).
Peace.
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May 5th, 2005
09:54 am - Update on the fly
1) I'm still alive (yay)
2) I'm still working (boo)
3) I apparantly have a new flat (yay)
4) haven't seen said flat and its rather expensive (very worrying)
5) Haven't read lj in a while so have no idea what any of you guys are up to because I'm too busy from point 2 (boo)
6) I need a new job, so if anyone knows of anything please text me about it since i have no time to get on the net :(
7) i'm 19
8) still on emergancy fucking tax
9) Betty is starting to piss me right off
10) can't quit because of point 4
11) bye
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/niaha/kitty/anksleepyp.gif) drained
Current Music: the wind
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April 15th, 2005
11:05 am - Invite
Since (by order of the Timothy) I have actually gone to the bother to getting Saturday the 23rd off of work, I demand that you all come out for a couple of drinks to celebrate me getting one step closer to whatever awaits me.
Friday 22nd April
(thats a week today)
Planet Out
8:30ish onwards
Everyone's welcome, lemme know if you're coming.
x
Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Skinny Puppy - Optimissed
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April 3rd, 2005
06:43 am - blip on the radar
well, hi. Long time no update, I know, though I'm still not entirely convinced there's anyone out there interested in that fact, so this will be another post used to show myself in the future that i never really had a life and it was all a wonderful dream that night I finally caved and went on a drug trip which i hoped would destroy me (I'm as sure of this happening as I am that I will get lung cancer before either Adam or Timothy - or any of my growing number of smoking friends - and that I'm going to get struck down on the roads of Edinburgh one day).
Eurgh, sorry, not a very good start. It's the work. They've managed to take enough of my time to stop me looking for another job and make me as tired as sin, while paying me too little to be able to quit and survive a while as I try to find a new job. I want a career. I'm done with University. Couldn't deal with going back. I look at people in their third and fourth years and I couldn't deal with that kind of stress, I was almost having a breakdown in first year for christ's sake.
My room is an utter sty, and even though I had two consecutive days off there I refused to clean it. I don't like how I'm living. It just doesn't seem worth it. I need...something. Just something unbelievably good, or even just something really good, to happen, to show me it's not all worthless and that I'll be able to sort it all out soon enough. But then again, those kind of things rarely (if ever) happen to me. Don't get me wrong, I have the most wonderful friends and I couldn't ask for anything more in that area, but every other area is...eggshell white.
This may all have something to do with my dad getting a new job, and when I read the advert of the job he's getting (while I am undeniably happy that he got a new job which could lead to him living in edinburgh) it made me realise just how clever and successful he is: partner in his own veterinary practice, member of mensa, has been a expert witness in a very big (in it's field) court case, and now this. Just a bit too much to live up to. And I know "my life is my own" if you have a successful parent, people expect you to be successful offspring...or at least not a complete failure.
I will never be special
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/niaha/kitty/ankittenp.gif) blah
Current Music: REM - electron blue
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March 21st, 2005
01:57 pm - Flump it all
Dear-mother-fucking-cock-sucking-bull-shitting-god does work suck or what? working 59 hours this week and the boss just phoned me (its my day off so i'm guessing he wanted me to work, i didn't answer...cunt)
(expletive)x10^10000000000
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/niaha/kitty/ankangryp.gif) pissed off
Current Music: Mindless Self Indulgence - I Hate Jimmy Page
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March 14th, 2005
March 9th, 2005
08:14 pm - By the light of the night
So, the day after my whiney angst outburst and nothing's really different. as to be expected. and the world keeps on turning. While the post was fueled by Drink and paranoia brought on by it, there was real feelings behind it. And the tear stains on elliots shoulder will tell you that, and if he ever reads it i can't thank him enough for just being there last night.
With all that out of the way, I just want to say last night (up untill half one-ish) was one of the greatest nights in a long time. seriously, great people (two fantasic new people, being Scott and Gemma, who both rock) and just a good time. untill the angst that is. but that's just a vibe side effect.
Quote of the night (from a gay lady, before i get angry feminists attacking me): "Seriously, when did lesbians get so damned ugly? Did I miss a memo?"
not saying i agree with it (all lesbians i know are pretty as kittens) but it was funny as eddie (trying not to swear, so replace f words with legendary comedians, clever ol' me) at the time.
Current Music: king prawn - 'survive'
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March 7th, 2005
06:27 pm - My head is all tingly...
and in other news I Hung My Head by Johnny Cash is an unbelievably amazing song.
Thanks to Neil for bringing the album into work *yay*
Current Mood: tingly
Current Music: Johnny Cash - When The Man Comes Around
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